This shit always happens
i fall for someone wayyy outta the ballpark
they fall for me
i get scared
i fuck it up
make it better
i get scared
i fuck it up
make it better
then finally everything is going good
so they think
but they dont know the truth
the real truth anyways
see im not like most
Im A HIGHTOWER-JOHNSON
show me some
im stuck again
is it love?
is it the thing i keep doing?
this gets boring and tired. i have like nothing to do. considering normally my day surounds you. lol i love how you can control someones life. anyways
i cant wait till that 1.5 day has reached 30.. then maybe itll get easier
i guess i gotta take easy steps..
yeah it may get bumpy.. but has there ever been a smooth perfect ride?
this would be easier if i had them around…
guess this is something i have to do on my own… im not surprised.
Im sorry for the call last night.. what was i thinking? it was your birthday did i really want to upset you?… I see myself going back and forth and resenting you because im so mad at myself and hurt im trying to get you to feel that way. maybe its because i still and probably wont get over the year or something we had together. or maybe even all the games i felt were played btwn us. but when your restenting you really drank the poision and hope someone else is hurting from it. then when i got sent away my 2 best friends were my motivation to get better and leave.. well i guess now i see what happens when i fuck up so bad. i push the two people who knew me and i knew them like the back of my hand are gone… it actually sucks waking up and not having a txt from either one of you. i guess it only seems like yesterday i was waking up right next to both. i dont think ive ever cried in anyones arms….
at the end of the day i realize all i want back is my two best friends…. but theres alot of things that people want that doesnt happen…i thought it was ok to do the things i did… lemme curse you out when im drunk and use it as an excuse or even high… like no.. but the worst of all is when im so blinded by one thing i completely drop the other.
i will always love you both…. bubbles and blue
sober day : 1
crazy kid. aye !
I need to feel not here sometimes
let my mind be free
think on its own
be its one
be a slut
do things u normally wouldn’t
because sometimes its ok
sometimes u need to feel like that
say hello to my amazing girlfriend.
I kept trying to ask myself… what was it about you that was making me mad crazy… was it your eyes? was it the hair? or was it overall just our cute face? then i thought… those are all GREAT bonus but the real reason why i fell for you so hard.. is because your inner beauty the way we connected how i can look at u and just smile. how genuine you are with me, how much you care, how willing you are to do what is right, your self respect.. it has motivated me. because we can talk about anything and everything.. but ultimately because your not afraid to be you.
I actually love this girl more than life itself.
she completes me
we are smalls and talls
its everything about her i love even the faults
we’ve waited awhile
because we new there would be a good time.
right now is that time….
I love you smalls
you are mine
When ever we look at each other
we give each other looks
we know theres something
we are scared
both of us
you think im going to hurt you
i can see it in your eyes
and its hard to let go
im scared that you will just find someone better
think im not worth it
thats the main reason im scared of relationships
my resistance to think im good enough
but i see this connection
i think you do too
before you left
i looked directly in your eyes
and we shared a smile
“A foolish person who seeks fame and profits from any situation always suffers”
So im taking a break,
from all the drama
the life everyone “loves”
im being selfish
taking time to myself
looking at life from another perspective
if i saw myself a year ago i would have said
what a loser…
it gets old
im on a whole other direction….